by 仓央嘉措

第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。

第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。

第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。

第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。

第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。

第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。

第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。

第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。

第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。

第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。

但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。

安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

最讨厌听到有钱人说他不快乐
我想请问 你要的快乐到底有多快乐
那些不满足的人 干脆去扒粪
如果你像我水深火热 在烂泥里打滚
你的要求和欲望就不会在那么愚蠢
quote from 自由发挥 a chinese music group.

i know my life isnt very bad... there are ppl out there leading life more miserable than me. BUT at least i am trying to work hard to reduce load in my life... i try to do chores, earn more to reduce finacial load. i can farking safely say i contribute to my house.
BLOODY hate to hear ppl kpkb about me being so busy... esp from ppl who dont need to self sustain...when i say self sustain i mean EVERYTHING in life... from living to eating to entertainment...

grrrr still piss after writing...

~holidays!!~
basically just rot and more rot...
waste money and time
reduced tuitions and wushu timings >< = less money

as usual, i had planned so many things to do but lack that motivations again...
is it even possible not to contact anybody and live in solitude just for 2 weeks in singapore??!!
not that i am trying to blame others for not fulfiling my to do list... i just want to find peace to focus! why is it always so hard to reject others?

haiz...
need to reflect and change my personality and get rid all my bad habits!!
anyone out there wanna help me? :S

today's mood: slightly good :)

haha this week done afew notable stuff.

TUESDAY
i *******ed haha.... abit weird though haha well but then got ******ed haha expected actually... even though over **** will help me in many ways, i will try my best to help myself haha..

WEDNESDAY
pass Harry Potter deathly hallow to Sally after giving tuition..

THURSDAY
haha accompany sheldon for his audition lol
but its a suay day la...
my slipper have to break in the train zzzzzz....
limped to cashew CC
ps sheldon for school around 830
after lesson back to the CC to find him haha...
then together make way to someset for me to meet ronnie haha....
had lunch... tok cok.. then make way to chatsworth to teach wushu lol...
nowadays kids very hard to control haiz
then go home lor...
emo abit at home..
rush finish IBM essay ><

FRIDAY
IBM lesson again -.-
got test!! anyhow write lor...
after lesson rush to meet Victoria haha... take back mindmap...
had lunch with her and TOK COK session haha...
reminiscing JC times and MORE TOK COK haha..
after chatting i totally felt better le
not so emo le haha
THANK YOU haha

kinda thats all for now... oh ya going night riding lesson later

非常明白那种感觉。
喜欢上了不该喜欢的人。

虽然说《烦》就能形容那种感觉
可是内心总是有很多复杂的感受。

明明知道有些事是不能或不可
但还是会明知故犯。

又要带着复杂的心情去睡了。
晚安。
:(

hello

one year one and half month since I ord~ed
five months of schooling
four years ago said not to get in to this kind of problem
four years was doing very well.. able to ignore and focus

recently i got very distracted...
am I really that not determine enough?

I dunno...
I can't ans my own question...
going to be quiet for a long long while
back to studies :(

OMG its 156 days after i ORD~ed lol...

still doing nothing useful.. haiz...
need to buck up :(