dunoo.. been missing lessons these days... but seriously i feeling mentally ill... i dunno wad i wad to do... i like feeling abit aimless... 4 years.... i am stuck at this stage of life.... finally when i want to move on, the uncertainties in the future scares me abit... i start to be stress by the work load... i can revise at all... = history might repeats itself...last year i attended all lessons ok... but result like shit... so this year i wanna do it my self.... at least i know i will be more focus... shit lessons la... ok.. not say its not helping.... but the work laod is terrible... i losing control of myself le...


my head just suddenly have piercing pain... feeling full or air... not stomache... it like chest very tight.... very irritated easily... i am just trying to control... i nearly lost temper..... just feel like snapping back at everybody... but i held back... i know i am wrong.... i am losing my self... sooon... just hope.. i can go through this last month....zzz

~hoping~~