hmmm.. accidentally click on my old blog.. was spending some time reading the posts.. while reading them, weird feelings just overwhelm me.. thoughts like why? and how did i did it? were running around my head...

feeling a little dumb.... cos some how i feel i do have some faults... i say there must be trust between each other. but i wasnt able to do it... trust take time to build but to could just crumble in an instant... i could never forget wad i had done... tt night i couldnt forget that she lied to me and i went to read the chat log... thats was very despicable of me and i regretted doing it.. reasons are that i betrayed the trust, i invaded her privacy and i got to know many unpleasant things that a bf wont want to know...

after reading those i should have let go much earlier but i did not... thats another dumb thing i did... after so long i feel i am a totally different person... maybe not physically but mentally and emotionally...

just some thoughts
要做到无我真的很难...
its easy to fall in love but it is hard to maintain a relationship
there is no 100% de


hmmm think i wrote too much le... was expecting something much less.... but then i cant help it... sorry peeps if its too crappy... WANTED TO TALK MORE ABOUT MY STUDIES DE HAIZ... NEXT TIME BAH,,,