~YiKuAnG~

2012-01-24T17:51:00.001+08:00

by 仓央嘉措

第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。

第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。

第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。

第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。

第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。

第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。

第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。

第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。

第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。

第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。

但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。

安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

2011-07-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

最讨厌听到有钱人说他不快乐
我想请问你要的快乐到底有多快乐
那些不满足的人干脆去扒粪
如果你像我水深火热在烂泥里打滚
你的要求和欲望就不会在那么愚蠢
quote from 自由发挥 a chinese music group.

i know my life isnt very bad... there are ppl out there leading life more miserable than me. BUT at least i am trying to work hard to reduce load in my life... i try to do chores, earn more to reduce finacial load. i can farking safely say i contribute to my house.
BLOODY hate to hear ppl kpkb about me being so busy... esp from ppl who dont need to self sustain...when i say self sustain i mean EVERYTHING in life... from living to eating to entertainment...

grrrr still piss after writing...

2011-06-20T17:51:00.004+08:00

~holidays!!~
basically just rot and more rot...
waste money and time
reduced tuitions and wushu timings >< = less money

as usual, i had planned so many things to do but lack that motivations again...
is it even possible not to contact anybody and live in solitude just for 2 weeks in singapore??!!
not that i am trying to blame others for not fulfiling my to do list... i just want to find peace to focus! why is it always so hard to reject others?

haiz...
need to reflect and change my personality and get rid all my bad habits!!
anyone out there wanna help me? :S

2010-12-10T17:32:00.002+08:00

today's mood: slightly good :)

haha this week done afew notable stuff.

TUESDAY
i *******ed haha.... abit weird though haha well but then got ******ed haha expected actually... even though over **** will help me in many ways, i will try my best to help myself haha..

WEDNESDAY
pass Harry Potter deathly hallow to Sally after giving tuition..

THURSDAY
haha accompany sheldon for his audition lol
but its a suay day la...
my slipper have to break in the train zzzzzz....
limped to cashew CC
ps sheldon for school around 830
after lesson back to the CC to find him haha...
then together make way to someset for me to meet ronnie haha....
had lunch... tok cok.. then make way to chatsworth to teach wushu lol...
nowadays kids very hard to control haiz
then go home lor...
emo abit at home..
rush finish IBM essay ><

FRIDAY
IBM lesson again -.-
got test!! anyhow write lor...
after lesson rush to meet Victoria haha... take back mindmap...
had lunch with her and TOK COK session haha...
reminiscing JC times and MORE TOK COK haha..
after chatting i totally felt better le
not so emo le haha
THANK YOU haha

kinda thats all for now... oh ya going night riding lesson later

2010-12-06T19:40:00.002+08:00

非常明白那种感觉。
喜欢上了不该喜欢的人。

虽然说《烦》就能形容那种感觉
可是内心总是有很多复杂的感受。

明明知道有些事是不能或不可
但还是会明知故犯。

又要带着复杂的心情去睡了。
晚安。
:(

2010-12-05T11:14:00.004+08:00

hello

one year one and half month since I ord~ed
five months of schooling
four years ago said not to get in to this kind of problem
four years was doing very well.. able to ignore and focus

recently i got very distracted...
am I really that not determine enough?

I dunno...
I can't ans my own question...
going to be quiet for a long long while
back to studies :(

2010-04-06T11:19:00.001+08:00

OMG its 156 days after i ORD~ed lol...

still doing nothing useful.. haiz...
need to buck up :(

2010-02-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

life seems to have
many stages.
many phases
many decisions
many desires
many unfulfiled aims
many many...

hate to admit.
i feel old.
i feel that i have many incomplete in life.

sometimes i wish i could just be freed from such mundane stuff.
sometimes i wish i am not burdened by so many factors in life.
sometimes i wish i had someone there to support me.
sometimes i wish i dont exist.

everything i went through seems like a performance

Growing up in a tuition centre having no childhood.
breezing through primary school life.
slogging through secondary school.
wasting time in JC.
slacking off army.

WHAT HAD I ACCOMPLISHED?? NOTHING!!
even now i cannot even properly tahan a desk job...
feeling hopeless and useless...

feels like i am fading off from this world.
and nothing seems to be able to stop it.
life seems to be coming to an end.

cant write le bye....

2010-01-26T19:45:00.003+08:00

hmmm very long never come here le... nearly 3 months le..

working is such a chore but need to work to have money

life can be such a boring routine but its the routine that lets u know tt u r alive

sometimes i despise myself for being useless..

succumbing to the reality of money and giving up pursuing own dreams

how i wish life sometimes can be less costly

haiz..

lost the will ~ lost the motivation

is there anyone out there understand wad i am thinking?

.................................................

2009-10-29T13:07:00.004+08:00

was browsing through some email....
came across a very saddening attachment..
this reminded me how stupid i was afew years ago
problems were already there
should have get done with it...
but...

i realise how EASILY ppl can break your trust
and how much i dont trust
and know how fragile trust is

now can feel the fear of history repeating itself...
how long can u trust
OR how long can u last without breaking the trust....
conclusion: ........... cant think of one...

very disturb..... just move on.. i want to get over it...

2009-10-29T13:03:00.001+08:00

ORD LO

mixed feeling....

HAPPY

THAT I AM FREED

SAD

THAT I AM JOBLESS

despo for $ MUHAHAHA

2009-09-28T00:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes you just know time to leave..... you are drifting off le.... no point persist.... moving on with life....

2009-07-21T22:36:00.002+08:00

soon... time of crisis... what i really want to do? i really dunno... so many things i want to do... but feeling constrain....arghhhh just wanna be lock up alone.... took ** today to clear up some stuff in my room and set up a network at home... feeling sad? or uncertain? life... got to move forward... will try...

2009-07-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

.... many things i need to do...

1) rearrange my songs (cost: 3X good 1 hours)
2) rearrange my animes (cost: 1X good month)
3) get myself a new harry potter last book (i forget whom i lend it to haiz..) (cost: roughly $30)
4) repair my IBM laptop (cost: $250)
5) rearrange my blank cds (cost: 1x good 1hour)
6) check out the photos CDs (cost: 1X good 1day)
7) prepare material for SUN tuition (cost: 1X 3hours)
8) Find ways to earn money!!! (cost: like forever sia)
9) do a timetable to organise my time properly (cost: like hell long la zzz)
LOL thats hell lot of things to do la

2009-03-29T10:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm... in taiwan le... taiwan weather is cool... just like rainy days in singapore.... using office com... very laggy.... dying of boredom... starting to feel emo...
trying to rush my uni essay.... trying not to over spent....

ARGHHH so may things to do and i can find the motivation to do....

i feel like i have a millions of things on my back.... feeling the burden... abit resent my life....

!@#$% how!!! i am only 22 only about 1/4 of my life and i starting to resent it... how to get through the remainding years?? feeling so confused... thinking of giving up everything... but cant to so cos too many things is in the back of my mind... din know its so hard to let everything go in life...

going off soon le... will go back and think more about life... finding something worth working for... (hard to do so, might have no result) might go missing again...

2009-02-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

NOOOOO MONEY!!! haiz how~....

2009-02-05T22:21:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我

能不能把我的愿望还给我

为什么天这么安静

所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我

释怀说了太多就成真不了

也许时间是一种解药

也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑

我怎么睡得着

你的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳还是会绕

没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单

你说依赖是我们的阻碍

就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑

要我怎么睡得着

你的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕

没有理由我也能自己走掉

是我说了太多就成真不了

也许时间是一种解药解药

也是我现在正服下的毒药

歌曲故事背景：

「彩虹」，故事由演员们诠释，叙述一个男生得了癌症，为了让女友有自己未来的幸福，他带女友再去一次每个约会的地方，最后却远走他乡出国念书，女生以为男友辜负他，在男友的父亲给了女生一个日记本之后，一切才得到感人的解答。

「彩虹」这首歌由周杰伦填词谱曲，歌词里「有没有口罩一个给我，释怀说了太多就成真不了。也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药。」

杰伦表示：「『时间』是解药也是毒药，就跟水能载舟、亦能覆舟的道理一样，大家常常说『时间』久了就可以清醒之类的，但是『时间』却往往让人陷入陷阱。」

2009-01-14T18:25:00.003+08:00

haiz bu zhi bu jue... 290 days more to go.... about 42 weeks.... :S everyday wake up at 5am... such a chore.... first think in mind when i wake up.. 12 hours more to book out... will be trying to blast music from my psp to my ears on the way to busstop... but will still be feeling emo/stone....

very fan la... my time kena taken away lor.... sold to the *gar~ment* for half of a K... work like a *ban~gala* no life of own.... only listen then do....

wads worst.... after work my time was sold for free... have to make my way down to khatib and teach kidos maths and sciences till 830 then can go home.... i bloody tired le la... still need to go find energy to teach and prepare materials.... i can teach without being prepare if not will be unfair to the kidos... haizzzz.... slave for life....

2008-12-07T08:57:00.003+08:00

hey so long din blog le... soooo many ppl chasing after for updates.... but i was really busy mah haha :P lalala

immediately after As i went back to work la... very tiring de lor.... where got time to blog la... hahaha..

now finally got a break heehee, got some friends out to have a belated birthday party ;) haha my belated party gathering la... got sop, sharon, john, jj, saigin and eugune..

went to minds cafe at bugis :D haha was playing many weird games.... they all took advantage me lor cos me alway slow reaction de... haha after leaving minds cafe.. we walked all the way to paradis to play pool haha.. sop was wearing her heels so tall la haha so not used to it :P after pool it was sharon turn to become tall haha :P (go figure wad happen haha)

after pool went PS jalan jalan then guobin jio us go to fort canning park to attend ben's & jerry's chunk fest... the point is that we WALKED up and down fort canning zzzz only when going back tt time we found that there is an escalator up to the location ARGHHHH so tiring la....

haha but i guess its much tougher for sop she wore the heels and walk up and down fort canning ... we nua at fort canning till 10 plus then go home...

to summarised... i ENJOYED the whole day... hahaha

2008-09-30T16:46:00.002+08:00

i feel tired... very very tired.... suddenly feel like giving up... but if i do so i will have wasted all my previous efforts... how to continue to focus... SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME!!~~ i dunno what to do.... i feel wasted.... mind is in a swirl... cant think properly...

2008-09-09T22:17:00.004+08:00

hmmm.. accidentally click on my old blog.. was spending some time reading the posts.. while reading them, weird feelings just overwhelm me.. thoughts like why? and how did i did it? were running around my head...

feeling a little dumb.... cos some how i feel i do have some faults... i say there must be trust between each other. but i wasnt able to do it... trust take time to build but to could just crumble in an instant... i could never forget wad i had done... tt night i couldnt forget that she lied to me and i went to read the chat log... thats was very despicable of me and i regretted doing it.. reasons are that i betrayed the trust, i invaded her privacy and i got to know many unpleasant things that a bf wont want to know...

after reading those i should have let go much earlier but i did not... thats another dumb thing i did... after so long i feel i am a totally different person... maybe not physically but mentally and emotionally...

just some thoughts
要做到无我真的很难...
its easy to fall in love but it is hard to maintain a relationship
there is no 100% de

hmmm think i wrote too much le... was expecting something much less.... but then i cant help it... sorry peeps if its too crappy... WANTED TO TALK MORE ABOUT MY STUDIES DE HAIZ... NEXT TIME BAH,,,

2008-09-03T22:36:00.003+08:00

been at home for 13 days le.. left wif 21 days to continue with this kind of life... =) seems boring but beats going to work at a place i dont like at all...

i am suppose to make use of this 44days to prepare my exams de... but some how i wasted 13 days le... nearly 2 weeks...

well after this blogging session i will go mug le.. have to...

this entry is some what a reflection after reading a friend's blog... "Tots of staying in YJC for four years came again" quoted from her blog.... well that was what i went through... i studied in yjc for 4 full years....... crazy right? some how after going through the 4 years i gained and lost many things

i gained more friends and a better grades la... but then i totally wasted 2 extra years... i recently met some of my year 1 friends and some of my sec school friends... they either in uni 1st year le or 3rd(gals)... while looking at them and thinking about my future i realise i was very foolish and stubborn but i guess i am such a person even till now i still haven give up... i believe in 有始有终 (you shi you zhong) this is the last year i going try my best in A lvl again and this time will be the last time le....

i now can see the big pic le... A lvl is just a passing moment in life... tts y it short 2 years only... life will have to go on even the grades isnt too great... one can still do a degree de lor or even make it big in life wif out a degree... and how well a person will do in life is not base on A lvl.. some who din finish PSLE also can make it bigh in life de... i do see peopl like tt...

i din give up tryin As till now was because i am too proud to let things be... i just find it very hard to let go...'after so many year its still like tt'...<-- tt was wad i had been thinking i my head..

actually in short, i just want to tell my friends that now is the time to put down any distractions, and give all the best no matter how hard it is going to be... cos i dont want anyone to feel regretful...like wad i went through... it sucks...

resolution: start mugging hard, so hard that as if there wont be any tomorrow for me....

2008-09-03T15:24:00.011+08:00

hmmm

guilty of the following charges...
~watching too much anime~
~reading too much manga~
~not studying hard~
~not updating blog~
~din read frens blog~

punishments
---- nil ----

muhahahahaa lolx!!

aiyo watching really too much anime le...
~fate/stay night
~zero no tsukiama (season 1)
~zero no tsukaima ~ Futatsuki no Kishi (season 2)
~mahou sensei negima!!
~aishiteruze Baby

all very nice to watch!!!! must go check it out kay... try veoh streaming to watch..

still dling alot more... =s

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2008-07-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

quite true for me lolx

SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.

He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.

He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.

If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.

He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say 'yes, as big as a balloon'. He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.

If he says 'you look pretty today', you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.

He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.

He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.

When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.

2008-06-06T11:05:00.002+08:00

just thinking... know thinking and not doing anything is aka nothing and waste time... but i dunno how to move... its like i am trap... i worry about my next move... somemore so many thing weighting me down i really afraid i cannot cos mentally or emotionally..... haiz grrr somebody or anyone just talk some sense into me numbskull will ya :X

2008-06-06T10:15:00.005+08:00

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
如星的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离
一幕最新的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是夏季
你我的过去被算是真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
如星的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里待续

Yeah I'm Ready
Oh Are You Ready ?
1 2 Ready Go
1 2 Ready Go!
RAP:
笑一笑没什大不了　生气想爆炸就大声唱
笑一笑没什大不了　生气想爆炸就大声唱
天空是绵绵的糖　就算塌下来又怎样
深呼吸甩开悲伤　生气想爆炸就大声唱
爱很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
心情很 Easy　很 Easy　Woo Oh
梦很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
笑一笑没什么大不了
雨下再大又怎样　干脆开心地淋一场
RAP:
天空是绵绵的糖　就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样　干脆开心淋地一场
彩虹是微笑的脸　难过就抬起头大声唱
爱很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
心情很 Easy　很 Easy　Woo Oh
梦很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
笑一笑没什大不了
Woo Oh Oh 天空是绵绵的糖　就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样　干脆开心淋地一场
Yeah! Easy Easy Easy Easy
Easy Easy Easy Easy
爱很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
心情很 Easy　很 Easy　Woo Oh
梦很 Easy　很 Easy　Yeah Eh
笑一笑没什大不了
天空是绵绵的糖　就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样　干脆开心地淋一场
彩虹是微笑的脸　悲伤　Bye Bye
快乐不需要理由

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气谁被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

just emo~ing

2008-06-02T12:22:00.001+08:00

kns la.... i just totally hate going to work.... its just so bloody restrictive la.... i just cannot believe why people can work for 10 plus year of that kind of life.... there are people inside say working outside is still the same... actually i find it bullshit la.... outside work if not happy wif those working conditions, can always quit or worst case is kena fired... here ya right u might just lose your life forever if u try anything funny....just cant wait to get out of this kind of life.... 1 and half years is damn long la....

haiz just random rattering la.... those understand will understand if those dont i also cannot say much too :P haha just suck thumb and just do it... *pui*.... kk gtg le la.... back to my own activities...

2008-06-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

1. What’s your ambition?--
to be the top 10 richest man on earth muhahaha

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?--
equally important la... lol i had learnt my lesson lor

3. Who is the person you trust most?--
actully i have none yet not to the fullest trust

4. Do you think you have enough confidence.--
just sufficient

5. How many babies you want?--
2

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?--
Not always

7. What is your goal for this year?--
Do well for my As
and get into a uni lor

8. Do you believe in eternity love?--
yup haha

9. Have you broken someone’s heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?--
NO la.. do i look like those type lol!!~

10.What feeling do you love most?--
loving people and being loved lor :P

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?--
hmmmm well maybe is love me la and will commitment lor

12. Which person will you like to find out about most ?
dunno leh... maybe got too many le muhahaha

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?--
i try to

14. What does flying means to you?--
freedom?

15. What do you crave for the most currently?--
hahaha actually there is many thing that have to taken into considerations la..

16. Do you love anime?--
i love it haha :D

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.--
sweet, nice, thoughtful, cheerful and funloving

18. What have you done to please yourself?--
sleep it off bah

19. IF time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?--
after taking PSLE result... i had been making alot of wrong decising ever since than..

20.If your room is empty,what's the first thing you want to put in?--
Sofa

2008-04-16T09:55:00.000+08:00

how.. was chatting on msn last night... and got to realise As is just in 200 plus more days!!!! tts scary... i retaking As cos i really buay song wif my chemistry result....

super sian diao lor i learn something new from those ppl... i fact my clique gave it to me de... zzzz TYKB guess wad tt means... ask me and i might tell u personally.. haha zzz really sian....

lol now at camp... waiting for time to really pass... zzzz 5 oclock can go home le haha.... guess tts i always look forward to... everytime i wake up i say 12 more hours before i am back home... XD

dont wish to comment much i just wanna finish my ns life and quickly ord... but currently my ord date seeeeeeeeemmmmmsss to be a little bit far la... 565 more days to go bah.... KAOZ...

hmm think go to hide some where to study my chem le haha shhh... ciao lol

2008-04-16T09:11:00.001+08:00

yesterday marks the end of the interschool wushu competition.. hmmm sad to say this time yj din win anything.. and due to tt there might be a long chain of aftermath going on in the CCA... esp if floorball managed to win something back....

i really just dont get it... i not afraid to say i study in yj for 4 years.. i went through alot of changes wif the school.. in fact i witness and experiences the changes... i realise how unfair life can be if u dont have must authority...
all these i am saying is for wushu in yjc..

in my first year, 2004, wushu had training on every wednesday and we share the hall wif badminton players.
they 2 courts we 1 court.. well at least we have a place to train....
take note yjc wushu wasnt a core cca and wasnt a sport yet

second year, 2005, where the problems comes in when theres is no more badminton training on wednesday.
the floorballs peeps came in they say they booked the hall for every wednesday to train...
there heres the flaw... the schools states that every cca will have their training area... if they took over the hall... where do we train?
we the members made noise to the teachers already.. and they say we can use the stage in the hall or if not enough space then go find other place to train...
this is the irritating part... 'if not enough space then go find other place to train'.... we were expecting to be alocated a court in the hall which is much bigger than the stage... but it turn out that we are homeless...
for nearly every training we often change location to train...
it feels so pathatic la....
and in 2005 wushu was recognise as a sport and yj wushu was made a core cca in school... being a core cca.. and to have no place to train is really very very pathatic...well lucky enough the members are willing to train.. so we spend outside cca time to train outside school... if not how to win some medals back against some school who has great investment in wushu....

continuing from 2005 to 2006.. i were thinking of changing training timing so as not to clash wif floorball.. but guess wad floorball had training for monday wednesday friday and sometimes saturday... they practically took over the hall for all the CCA training time slots....when we go reasons wif them, they also direct us to mdm shila... their teacher incharge who is a pe teacher... great... ppl i dont need to say till very very clear.. u all can see how unfair it can be.... we lost our training grounds... and it surely will greatly affect our morale and performances in cometitions la...

the effects had taken place already.. in 2007 and 2008... the interschool wushu competitions yjc only win minimal or din win at all... and wad can we say... we lack training time... no training place if we had the trainings like floorball, we might have gotten many many more medals...

grrr after reading out... there might have ppl feeling offended but seriously we are now still feeling offended and felt treated unfairly....

To the current wushu members....actually i was a little disappointed lor... but its not your fault... i saw how hard u all had train... you all might have lost but you all had gain something u all might cherish for life... i was very very touch to see you all aiming high and able to take defeat... cos this will make u all stronger warriors!! :D haha tts all i wanna say bout wushu la....

2008-04-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

by
Collin Raye - Love, Me

2008-03-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

took back result le..... okok lor better than before but not as good as i wanna it to be....

just hoping can get in the uni i wanna go.....

sucks big time... i kena dengue la..... totally terrible feeling.... cant eat and feel shitty.... keep having blood drawn to be tested.... had to be on drip... went through platelets tranfusion... thanks those who had ever donated blood... when on drip going toilet is a chore sia.... the packet of water had to follow whereever i go de...haiz

2008-03-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

林俊杰-会有那么一天

一九四三世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深
但是爷爷身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

2008-03-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

[ Chorus: ]
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
[ Lyrics found at www.mp3lyrics.org/Oa ]
Before it's too late
This could all disapear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend (ah ah)
I'll fight and defend (ah ah) yeah yeah

[ Chorus ]

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change trust in me
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da

[ Chorus ]

Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
Keep holdin' on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

2008-02-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

shagged... was on night shift these 2 weeks zzzzzzz

many things happened in these 2 weeks too...

lion dance... hmmm next timw will try out wif the lion head le bah haha been escaping the role for very very long le...

vdae was alittle bad too.. :( dont wish to say too much...

wushu also dying out in me le... feel so weak... cannot even do a proper jump.... so disappointed

sometime i was just jealous about you.. i really need the discipline you have to train... but i just like cannot do as well... yup i know its my fault for not paying attention and not training hard...

ohh ya!! i got myself a psp :P haha finally and its pink lol!!!

ehh dunno le la... i know i really not good wif word.... just so pek cek....

btw.. hope u'll get well soon... just dunno why kinda worried... just dont too stress bah...

think gtg le... but i kinda like this phrase... to have but not to hold...

2008-02-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

haiz... feeling emo liao la... V dae reaching le... then i just recieve a very depressing news lor... haiz.... dunno how i should spend tt dae :S

wo shi dui ni you diao hao gan..
bu zhi bu zue hen xiang gen ni jiao wang....
dan shi wo bu zhi dao ru he xiang ni kai kou..
ye hen hai pa shou dao ju jue....

sometimes i feel so no guts when handling relationships...
this is really so fan and pek cek zzzz grrrr

haiz... gtg le la... was just typing out some emotions...

2008-01-24T13:15:00.001+08:00

heex can u believe it actually can use internet in SI lolx life back as an nsf is sooooo shitty sia.... signal.. hmmm just keep learning how to use radio set.. and tele lines zzzzz worst after 4 years of jc life i still have to go through more tests... IN NS life zzzzzz can die lor..... haha

hmmmmm just hoping to get a stay out posting soon haha... geex looking forward to go school this sat :D heehee sooooooo many people i wanna meet sia.... lalalalalal (",)

kk kena caught liao gtg bb

2008-01-12T09:57:00.000+08:00

got this from sharon blog :X haha thanks ar :P

Rules of the Game ___

1.Prepared to get hurt.( heart breaks are common )
2.Tearing are common.
3.Dun expect 100% return.( 100% Give = 100% return, dun exist! )
4.Guessing Game is a Sure!
5.Players involved can choose to back up any time. ( so is uncertain. )
6.Promises are always meant to b broken in the Game.
7.Taken for granted may Occur.
8.Never Get too involved. (why? refer to 5 & 6 . )
9.It is nv fair.( refer to 3 , 5, 6, & 7. )
10.When is time to end, is time to end. ( trust mi, dragging doesnt help.)
11. Lastly, play it cool.~

P.S 12. This Game is nt suitable for faint Hearts!

maybe i feeling emo bah.... but those people out there dont u agree tt this is kindda true??

2008-01-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm so long never blog le.... actually i always haven many to say.. but when i long in to blogger i just dunno wad to type :(.... guess is the moment u wear that green uniform yur intel level just drop like siao :S....

my heart just so mess up... and i dunno why i keep wanna stay out.... sometime just feel so desperate.. well tt terms but more of desperate to retain freedom..... haha

remember tt dae went for concert :D hahaha got something nice for my friend who was performing :P hahaha kinda enjoy tt day heeheex

haiz.... i will just try to update more often bah...

2007-10-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

just dont feel good today... worried for many many people ..... hmmm sometime i think i abit irritating lor... wanna help but like not helping at all!!!!

2007-10-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm... wanna write many many things.... but dunno where to start...

i sort of have a taste of my own medicine... wad to do i am Scorpio.... being a Scorpio there is a very distinct characteristic... i dont wish to say.... but people who know good for u :)....

grrrrrr revision not going too smoothly as i wanted... hope it not too late... i really need to chiong.... no way i letting history repeats itself.... i wanna beat.... i wannna to be the very best.... i wanna beat myself.. i wanna prove it is possible... last year was miracle to pass chem... this year will be diff.. no more miracle... its my effort le!!~~

AIM FOR THE MOON, COS EVEN WHEN I FALL, I WILL STILL LAND AMONG THE STARS... (quoted from my cousin.. thnx buddy ;)) haha

2007-10-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

wo yi zhong du tai sheng le.... mei jie yao liao...

2007-09-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

dunoo.. been missing lessons these days... but seriously i feeling mentally ill... i dunno wad i wad to do... i like feeling abit aimless... 4 years.... i am stuck at this stage of life.... finally when i want to move on, the uncertainties in the future scares me abit... i start to be stress by the work load... i can revise at all... = history might repeats itself...last year i attended all lessons ok... but result like shit... so this year i wanna do it my self.... at least i know i will be more focus... shit lessons la... ok.. not say its not helping.... but the work laod is terrible... i losing control of myself le...

my head just suddenly have piercing pain... feeling full or air... not stomache... it like chest very tight.... very irritated easily... i am just trying to control... i nearly lost temper..... just feel like snapping back at everybody... but i held back... i know i am wrong.... i am losing my self... sooon... just hope.. i can go through this last month....zzz

~hoping~~

2007-09-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

hm went school study...but cannot concentrate.. walk walk.. saw them cleaning cats.. join them a while.. then wasking mummy cat.. she was meowing so loudly tt a teacher came and gave a a tslk... hmm wanted to slip off but seems to bu jiang yi qi.. so stay till she finish talking...

hmm went back to study.. then kena ps by XX...so staying school longer... then went to eat kfc... and then icecream... lol!!! then rush to AMK to replace my spoilt ezlink card... then rush home again to change so can rush down to indoor stadium...

watch wushu performances lor... abit turned off cos 2 years ago one got more to watch lol.... well after tt show... pull stun again.. walk walk to mac then had little pranks here and there... then got jio to watch rogue ass.. went to plaza.. then buy 230 tickets... haha then tok cok abit.. then go watch liao... btw mel my 8 dollar hahaha... cheat me watch this show.... haha...after show... wait for first bus lor... then reach home around 7 zzzzz

slept abit.. and btw its raining... then someone say dont want to swim....then purposely dont call me when rain stop.. haha PS-er haha jk... then jy jio go study.. lol then went kfc lunch....then go pool ..... zzz hmm abit waste money again.. damn la i like getting out of control liao... then when to have dinner.. then study at mos till 2230 lor.. then go home......... haiz... lost every round to her lor... sian la.... haha doesnt matter la.. Alevel more important.. hahaaha this postends here liao :)

2007-09-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

hmm had used to mrl to do work haha so effective la... i choing quite alot... then went out had dinner wif sophie.. and 2 more guys.. well they very funny sia... keep seeing cats around wor heehee... haha had too much joke for one dinner le la!! haha busy laughing lor.. and i managed to shoot yr muhahaha "yea u tap de" heehee kk gtg nites

2007-09-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

2007-09-11T00:47:00.000+08:00

haiz today cannot wake up la... then my dad ask me go eat breakfast... then he sent me to school..i was rushing alot of my work in library lor... the went over to junyi house to rest abit... haha his niece cute cute haha.... sort of scare of strangers.. but also curious... haha she keep running about...

after tt went mos...again haha but late lor.. sharon was there liao haha.. sorry sia.. wont have the next time le la...

was mugging till like siao haha or should i say highlighting till like crazy haha.... abusing junyi and sharon highlighters..... at mos we over heard so lian speech haha... say something like both her parents want her to be very money minded... love come second.... lol hmmm.. and she said one more sentence.... of course i believe my mother la... she my mother lor... i came out from her !@#$%... then they left... was abit shock to hear this so loud lor hmm....

nvm those are not main in today's entry..

FINALLY.... my ezlink card fail me le... cannot tap arghhhh... zzzz need to make new one liao....haiz.. and both of the study buddies go take pic of my dog bitten ezlink card... zzz.. kena weiling virus le ar...

haha kk late le.. i wanna zzz liao nites!!!!!

2007-09-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

I wont ttell u
I wont breathe a word about
I will keep mum about it
forget Is the word

haiz... haha i full of secret la... just wanna let go :P

2007-09-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm abit of updates...

sat went school studied wif jy... cb.. and wl... zzz i made alot of noise there lor haha like so evil la distracting them zzz :X haha

then evening continue to study lor... then...buy cal bdae present.. and mel came along... zzz haha

after tt went home... then rush out again to mel house... tmd lor... haha no wireless de zzzzzzzz whole night no msn.. so terrible la... zzzz haha then just watch tv and teach mel play lf2 and lf2.5 haha

then next day, sunday... went to cal house to celebrate his bday haha....

had fun lor... lalaa got mahjong!!! sian starting win... then start to lose.. then win back my terrible losses haha..

oh ya the present i got of cal is a *come come paradise* lighter haha i was looking at the cover at first din know it was a lighter lor haha

after mahjong i quickly go toilet haha then rush to meet junyi.. i was so late la...zzz ps ps....we went to mos to study... then got some one join us hahaha she very distracted la... do differention... hor sharon, lol then went to play para para haha... not me la... is sharon and jy... well they good at it.. i cannot play la... unless u all wanna see a blob bouncing around isitt haha... so was datonaing all the time lor....

2007-09-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

Taken from Sharon's blog~~~

List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:

#1-Parents Stay Happy n Healthy!
#2-Friends Stay Happy n Healthy!
#3-Score my As!
#4-Earn lots of money!!!
#5-Hmm.. a SECRET! haha~~(copy from her de :P)

1. The person who tagged u is:
- sharon

2. Your relationship with her is:
- SCHOOLMATE wahaha and FRIENDS

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-nice to talk wif la
-chinese speaking :P haha (not used to your ang mo)
-friendly
-NOisy (tts why nice to talk wif)
-violent!!! (haha) finally i saying out le

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you:
- ask me questions about the china trip haha :P

5. The most memorable words she has said to you:
-pot calling kettle black haha

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?:
- ehhhh how i know wor this kind of thing hor i leave it to fate de lor :D so i wont think about it ;)

7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on?:
- be yourself? haha

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
- just ignore her lor as if she dont exist...

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
- backstabbed her?? tts wad she hated most o.O

10. The most desired thing you would like to do for her now is?:
- wahh very hard leh... i only help when help is needed leh so.. hmmm...

11. Your overall impression of her:
- the truth of false... haha noisy and violent la :X... no la...very nice person!!!(wei da) ;)

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
- ( haix) useless?? and flirt??

13. The character you love about yourself is:
- Optimistic!! haha will always feel better..

14. On the contrary, what character you hate about yourself:
- being an ass sometimes

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
- still myself :D

16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them:
- I LOVE YOU!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about u.
Hey, please do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:
*1: sharon!!!
*2: XX
*3. HY
*4. Junyi
*5. magde
*6. traces
*7. cal
*8. ronnie
*9. mel ang
*10.victoria

Who's #2 having relationship with:
- ehhh no one yet

Is #9 a female/male:
- male

If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing:
- Lolx. impossible! both hav a sum1 in mind n they are GERS! (no need to change haha)

#3 and #4:
-ehhhhh hope not la :X

#2 studying about:
-Diver... but prefer to study games...

When was the last time you chatted with #3:
-5hours ago

What kind of music does # 8 like:
- metal rock

Does #6 has any siblings?:
- 1 Sis!

Will u woo # 3?:
- see how first.. say le ths kind of things is 'yuan fen'

How about #7?:
- NO NO.. i not gay!!!

Is #4 single:
- nope but got alot of rumours heehee

Surname of #5:
- yeo

What's the hobby of #5:
- Sing, rot at home haha!! (should be abit of guessing here.. :S)

#3 studying at:
- Yishun Junior College

Have you tried developing feelings for #8?:
- damn it.. lol how many times must i say i not gay sia

Where does #9 live:
- yew tee

What colour does #4 like:
- blue

Are #1 and #3 best friends?:
- 1 dont even know who is 3 lor

Does #7 like #2?:
- ehh i really think my buddies are not gays too

How do you know #2:
- sec 1 classmate

Does #5 have a pet?:
- no..

.... finally finish liao zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2007-09-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

BOO!! its been one month plus plus le...

had been spending the whole day do my new blogskin.... haiz... now in school wasting time :X john next to me trying to break my phone game's score... haha u WILL never beat it!!!!!!

hmm... should be studying... but turn out i am doing this... kinda feeling guilty for slacking...

just finish outing wif miss lim... yea had fun... did alot of catching up... we had pool wif her... then getting late le.. then go home... spent about... 20+++ dollars hmmm....

well sometimes just feel so emo... but then dunno use wad words to describe.. haiz.... nvm just see everything goes bah.. =)

2007-08-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm... these few days happened alot of things... nationals... inner struggles... and studies...

nationals was just so so lor... its ever dark as usual.... zzz but at least i din not fail my self... i have done my best :)

studies...=.= still the same!!! like no progress la! now feeling very F up... due to studies.... dunno la very scared that A level will screw up again zzzzz

inner world of my is more F up..... i like bring nothing but troubles zzzz.... my onw emotions cannot control le... then i some more cause my friens to suffer... feel disgusted by myself... sometimes just feel like emo then cut off from everybody!!!! just lone...

maybe.... lone is a better way out for me....

updates!! lol

2007-07-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

long time since i blogged lol :S... time to update abit...

had wushu chalet.. tts fun!! but then i got abit troubled by food poisoning zzzz haha the bbq food was expose too long since 5pm till 12 mid night then i go eat.. serve me right.. right?? lol ok la... actually should have someone resposible to take care of the uncooked food?? lol.. well had nights out... mahjong.. arghh tok abit it... zzzz could have won la... then shifu... disturb... lol... snatch my game most of the time wahahah... nvm la just for the kicks so i was fun though i lose big bucks arghhh...*heart painzzzz* haha... ohh ya had a night walk.... it was 4 people... hy, vic, tp monkey and me lol walk from coast to coast (quote for RA1 stalin) lol no la just from changi beach to east cosat mac... zzz about 2 hours.. was fun!! i should be happy about it le la... but just feel alittle not enough.. :S haha nvm nvm haha let it go wif the flow...

haiz... after the first food poisoning, i recovered alittle bit then i go ehh eat laksa... another serve me right... i kena serious stomachache... see doc againzzz... waste money!!! haiz lucky that i still managed to recover now :P haha.. haiz was studying for block test for the rest of the weeks... well din seems to be productive at all... was kinda worried for block test...

finally block test came.... gp was crap... i was just wacking all ans... and any how change the words to own words dont even know if they sound right....

haiz....then decided to join traces to study at BK mac lol BK= boon keng.... aiyo cos near my house lor... can just cycle and reach in 10 mintues haha...

well was studying for physics paper 3 for first dae... and hmmm the paper seems alright... so i was alittle relieve....

then comes chemistry paper 2.... wahhh the marks allocations is 10, 5, 5, 10..... i last 10 i gave up.... so praying the rest can make it through... :S

OMG then maths..... vectors, complex, DE, approximation, PnC, prob and all stats... my deadly enemies in maths... zzz.. but phew... the paper wasnt too hard.. i realise i din forget vectors at all can ans smoothly... well complex DE and approximation was anyhow bomb...STATs was *faint* i just wack the normal, bin, po, and random... the crv, proportion i gave up.. in other words, i gave up 30 marks confirmed... zzz

kns.... i kena flu.. then was zz for the weekends... but i still go swim and watch movie on friday... but then i realise it just worsen my flu.. cos i was swimming in the evening and it was very cold cos a thunder storm came while swimming half way... so left... and went to watch transformer!!! haha wif xx lor oh ya i was swimming wif xx btw... lol.... the cinema is freaking cold la... cos after swimming then watch late night movies... sure freezing la.... haiz the show was fantastic... much better than F4:sliversurfer.... after the show.. we pulled a stunt... lol just took a random bus.. it was 28... so we just let it gooooo the alight.... was walking to the nearest busstop that can bring us home... lol then we miss that stupid bus 13 la... thanks ar xx haha... (blame U) :P haha...well heng ar... we reach the busstop a 147 came save our night walk haha... then zzz le la....

sat worst... din see doc of my flu... then went out wif yp to watch NDP rehearsal... ok ok la.. abit boring... only the navy water display.. and themilitary display was excellent.. :D.... then went bugis... ate ramen... i got an extra big bowl... lol.. haha it was the end of the month so i suggested go dutch.. if not i will treat my cousin haha... lol... opps then we cabbed home *haiz broke liao la* haha

hmmmmm sunday... cannot tahan liao... went to see my family doctor... took the first dose of medication... haha get much better... then i went to my mum's place.... haha had some fried stuff.. :P then i collected my stuff then go home zzz... well back at home i had lunch wif yp again lol... afterthat wanna meet traces but haha i reach she decided to go off le so.. i went off early tooo... reach home around 6 plus i zzzzz till 9 plus 10.. then xx called zzz haha.. ask me go eat dinner.. haha lucky him ar.. i skip dinner cos i was napping till 10.. we had sinful food like bbq stingray zzz wahaha after tt i went home zzz (pig right?) haha

brrrr today monday... went to tp mac... surprised to see traces... totally din expect her to be there.. lol but then i was wif xx so din sit wif traces.. sianzz was still under effect from flu and medication... so couldnt concentrate a lot... left around 5 plus then went arcarding!! haha opps... then walk back home (really walk back from tp to pp) haha took about 1 hours... then ate kfc at pp.. it was newly open...haha... well now... back at home... back to studies!!! tomorrow got 4 papers la.... idiot timetable.... chem 1 and 3 physic 1 and 2 zzzzz haiz

waohhh this really long update.... kinda turnoff haha... just post for remembering cos these few daes really i have alot of 'gan chu' (feelings)
haha ciaos

2007-06-09T09:18:00.000+08:00

Baby不要再哭泣　這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口　但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨

＊每一次和妳分開　深深地被妳打敗
　每一次放棄妳的溫柔　痛苦難以釋懷
　每一次和妳分開　每一次Kiss You Goodbye
　愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白＊

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給
我才明白愛最真實的滋味

開不了口

才離開沒多久就開始擔心今天的妳過的好不好
整個畫面都是妳想妳想到睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣還有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快樂是妳想一想的微笑
沒有妳在我有多難熬 (沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
沒有妳煩我有多煩惱 (沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
穿過雲層我試著努力向妳奔跑
愛才送到妳卻已在別人懷抱

就是開不了口讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要我後悔沒讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌看妳睡著一直到老
就是開不了口讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我

髮如雪
狼牙月　伊人憔悴
我舉杯　飲盡了風雪
是誰打翻前世櫃　惹塵埃是非

緣字訣　幾番輪迴
妳鎖眉　哭紅顏喚不回
縱然青史已經成灰　我愛不滅

繁華如三千東流水　我只取一瓢愛了解
只戀妳化身的蝶

妳髮如雪　淒美了離別
我焚香感動了誰
邀明月　讓回憶皎潔
愛在月光下完美

妳髮如雪　紛飛了眼淚
我等待蒼老了誰
紅塵醉　微醺的歲月
我用無悔　刻永世愛妳的碑

啦兒啦啦兒啦啦兒啦兒啦
啦兒啦啦兒啦啦兒啦兒啦
銅鏡映無邪　紮馬尾
妳若撒野　今生我把酒奉陪

珊瑚海
(Jay) 海平面遠方開始陰霾　悲傷要怎麼平靜純白
　　我的臉上　始終挾帶　一抹淺淺的無奈

(Lara) 你用唇語說你要離開(心不在)　那難過無聲慢了下來
　　　洶湧潮水　你聽明白　不是浪而是淚海

(合) 轉身離開 (你有話說不出來) 分手說不出來　海鳥跟魚相愛　只是一場意外
　　我們的愛(給的愛)　差異一直存在 (回不來)
　　風中塵埃 (等待)　竟累積成傷害

(合) 轉身離開 (分手說不出來) 分手說不出來　蔚藍的珊瑚海　錯過瞬間蒼白
　　當初彼此(你我都)　不夠成熟坦白 (不應該)
　　熱情不再 (你的)　笑容勉強不來　愛深埋珊瑚海

(Jay) 毀壞的沙雕如何重來　有裂痕的愛怎麼重蓋
　　只是一切　結束太快　你說你無法釋懷

(Lara) 貝殼裏隱藏什麼期待 (等花兒開)　我們也已經無心再猜
　　　面向海風　鹹鹹的愛　嚐不出還有未來

(合) 轉身離開 (你有話說不出來) 分手說不出來　海鳥跟魚相愛　只是一場意外
　　我們的愛(給的愛)　差異一直存在 (回不來)
　　風中塵埃 (等待)　竟累積成傷害

(合) 轉身離開 (分手說不出來) 分手說不出來　蔚藍的珊瑚海　錯過瞬間蒼白
　　當初彼此(你我都)　不夠成熟坦白 (不應該)
　　熱情不再 (你的)　笑容勉強不來　愛深埋珊瑚海

2007-06-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/">The Five Variable Love Test

2007-06-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

sian.. school holiday starts liao... din see for 2 weeks.. think alot.. just dont feel comfortable... i worry alot...i also afraid... wad if she doesnt want? or wad if she dont like? haiz dunno la just a step a time bah... :S

school hours seems very long everyday...and i tried to wake up early but just no motivation t0 do so... keep feeling sleepy when start work.... arghhh... just need to change... i wanna do well!! haiz.... i'll just keep trying.. :/

kk gtg school liao...

wadssssuppp :D

2007-05-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

sianzz... studying is suppose to be interesting cos we are learning new things in life.. however at this rate... i might die form the amount of homework given by the teachers... :X i made many choice in jc life... it only awhile later i then realise my choice was wrong... however one thing for sure now.. i din make a wrong choice in studying for A level exam... reasons... i dont wanna later in life regretting not trying hard enough in my jc life... no matter how much objections i came across.. i still want to retake... u all may find it a waste of time... but i find it is very fulfiling... i resolved to work harder now... so as not to disappoint myself... at the very least i know i din let go of any chances...

back?

2007-05-06T10:23:00.000+08:00

hmm... took me quite a while before writing in here... haiz... i screw up my A levels... cos cannot go in to uni... then i decided to repeat j2... and this means i have retain 2 years... taking a 4 year course in a jc =S abit lonely... :S never mind may be time will help :)